Dang, its been a long time since I’ve posted anything onto this tumblr.. BUT its 3AM and naturally, the late night has got me thinking about a lot, so ima make a post about it.
Usually when I post, its about the same best friend that will most likely never think of me in any other way. But tonight, my mind is constantly replaying memories of someone that I think of to be the best that I ever had. Although what we had ended prematurely, the short time that I had to spend with you was just amazing. It started off as something so simple as falling asleep watching a movie together. Or rather, I watched about 10 minutes of the movie while you fell asleep lying next to me. Eventually, I grew tired as well and before I knew it, I was walking up the next morning, cuddled up with this beautiful, beautiful girl. That morning, we didn’t really know what to say to each other. All that we could do was smile. And for the next week, we were inseparable. We never really talked about anything serious, but we both knew that there was something there. And we didn’t need any grand gestures by the other to show any signs of affection that might be there. It was the little things that happened over the course of that week that really made me fall for you.
Eventually, we started dating. I asked you to be mine at 12am on the first day of the new year, 2013. The following month after that was the best time I have ever been able to spend with anybody. You and I both knew that after the month was finished, we would be stuck in a terrible spot. You would be leaving and there was nothing I could do about it. We would always shy away from the subject, but eventually we decided that we would try to stick together and give long distance a shot. We both felt strongly about each other and felt that we could do it.
But when the time came, you left, and I didn’t hear from you for days. And just like that, it was all over. I had everything that I could ever ask for at one moment, then in an instant, it was all gone.
Its been about 6 months since you left me, and i must say that I really do still miss you. A lot. I know that you haven’t any space left in your heart for me. But if I could hear your voice, see your smile and just talk to you, it would make me feel a lot better.
But it won’t happen. Lol, My life sucks. Just a bunch of stories with sad endings and shit like that.
Goodnight tumblr. Fuck relationships.